I am fed up. Pissed off. highly angry at the world including myself. Yes, I acted stupidly but for god's sake I HAD MY REASONS! fuck christmas, something always always has to go wrong.
I'm at the verge of crying constantly though I don't really have a reason to. this is what I wanted, right? right. but it didn't go the way I wanted. all together it makes for christmas day home alone, watching mighty ducks movies, sobbing when it fades out with we are the champions. why do they always put pathetic music to slow mo pictures??? that ALWAYS makes me cry. always. so I did nothing but eat, watch tv and the first dvd of my newly received little britain first season, smoking pot, and drowning myself in loads of self-pity. yay. merry christmas I say...