if this is as hard as it gets today you've got a fighting chance

do you know this? standing there, not even suspecting what lies ahead. and then it hits you. punches you in the face. holds down your arms. kicks away your legs. and you can not move, or speak, or even think. so you shut your eyes as tightly as possible and you just hope and maybe even pray that it all be over soon. fast. painless. on a day like this. in moments of uncontrollable crying. when through a feeling of helplessness creep the words and the music. you just hope to save your sanity.