update

thank you for your kind words.
at the moment I'm holding up quite well considering...
the cremation is tomorrow morning and I'm expection another rush of emotions and some realisation probably. Frankly I'm a bit scared of it, but chances are that after some extensive crying I'll be getting better come tomorrow afternoon. Having know what would happen for about three weeks I think I did most of the processing already. Now all I need is some kind of closure.