I almost stepped in front of a car when I stepped down from the curb. For a millisecond I saw myself fly over the car's bumper. just for a moment, but I saw it clearly. I was never a cutter, so why is it that when I'm in pain my body asks for it too? maybe as a manifestation of the pain I'm already feeling? fact is I'm not very happy at the moment. I'm just not. and I don't know how I ever will be again. I probably will be better, but I just don't know how.
8 hours ago